so much for wanting to be like Azumi (a japanese movie character i've been blabbing about), i've ended up with my most dreaded hairstyle ever.
short.
curly.
PUFFY.
i might appear childish but i almost cried when i saw my previously long locks on the salon's floor. what more when i saw what eventually happened on the top of my head. even the hot blower and the water spritzer couldn't tame those curly, wild hair. "maganda naman eh, hindi ka lang sanay na maikli ang buhok mo", the i'll-never-ever-forget beautician said. i should blame her, because she did not beautify me at all, she ruined me. harsh? sana kasi sinabi niyang hindi niya naintindihan yung gusto kong mangyari. argh!
few more steps and i'm out of the salon. i'll never, ever go back to that place again. never. i half walked and half ran to our house, afraid that someone i knew would see me in that state. at home, i cried and howled like crazy while facing the mirrors, touching what remained on my head and regretting that i went to that parlor in the first place. all i wanted was a haircut to get rid of those split ends, not a haircut so short i looked like i was a boy!
call me a fool for reacting so much about my hair. i don't have that commercial quality hair. i've even considered myself to own the very worst case scenario of hair on earth. as i have stated earlier, i have a curly (or sometimes wavy) hair. so curly/wavy that it bulks up at the end. when i saw my hair on the mirror, it's as if i turned the clock five years ago, when i was in my first year in highschool. see my reaction when i see my past pictures. i'd wished cameras did not exist to freeze me.
i could've contained my fate if it wasn't for our enrollment the day after. i cried while i was eating my dinner. i really didn't want to go to school in that state. but what could i do? i can't go back to that parlor again and have my hair done. i can't because straightening and taming it would take a very long time. and i won't because they might ruin me again.
i woke up early the next day so i could have ample time to fix my hair. but it didn't help. it didn't help at all. no blower, conditioner or anything could change the fact that i looked hideous. i don't know where to gather enough courage to get out of our gate until i heard my three-year old cousin say, "maganda ka naman ate eh." (maliit pa lang bolera na noh?)
PUFFY HAIR ADVENTURE 1 BEGINS.
Puffy Hair Adventures is a supposed to be story i've conceptualized when i was in my second year highschool. of course, it starred a girl with a very puffy hair. so puffy, her hair was as big as a beehive.
i got out of the gate and never looked back. i did not dare to look at any reflective objects along the way, afraid that i might scare myself. i was paranoid too. i felt that as if all eyes were on me. what?! as if everybody was saying something not nice about my hair. something not nice about ME.
i rode a taxi to school to save me from my paranoia and to save myself from smoke intoxication.
PUFFY HAIR ADVENTURE 1 CONTINUES.
i was really afraid to walk around the school. but you see, you just can't help it. part of the toxic enrollment was the manual subject enlistment. you have to roam the AS to search for whatever class with a slot. i have to roam. i have to showcase my hair to everybody. even if we say that students in the University don't mind other's business, it's still different when you receive "shocked" reactions from those you knew. iba talaga eh. para kasing ang reaksyong, "ang ikli ng buhok mo, ba't ka nagpagupit?!" ay katumbas ng, "anong nangyari sa'yo?! ba't ganyan ang itsura mo?!"
it was a good thing i was with my highschool batchmates, atleast they eased the burden within me. they kept on telling me that i don't look hideous at all. but i still couldn't remove that fear whenever i see a friend. especially those who would make fun of you. i hate you
my hair was indeed the MANE attraction of the day.
PUFFY HAIR ADVENTURE 1 ALMOST ENDS.
i couldn't stand that hair another day. i needed to get things done. i needed to STRAIGHTEN up! off i went to the nearest TRUSTWORTHY salon. a few bucks, and voila! i gained my self-esteem again! cheers for me! ; )
just a thought: we go to the salon to improve our superficial selves. we avail of the various services they offer no matter what the price is. when we go out, though our pockets are ransacked, we feel good. not that good feeling because we've experienced a therapeutic massage or a refreshing facial scrub, but that good feeling because on the outside, we look good than we were before. in the eye of the society, we are widely accepted. i understand that this is a matter of being superficial, that what's inside is more important. but here, reality bites. we cannot deny the fact that most of us "look" first before "digging" up.
PUFFY HAIR ADVENTURE 1 ENDS.
i was revived at around 6:00 pm (about the same time when i was murdered). i'm back! alive and kicking! i was not paranoid that all eyes were on me. i looked better than a few hours ago. i travelled home with a smile plastered on my face. wee.
come dinner time.
"akala ko lalaki ka." -anonymous
what?!
when will i ever get this right?!
i want to have my hair long again!
| posted by mica. at 12:15 AM
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meow said:
omyGod~ I can relate! I just had my haircut becoz I was kinda imatating my fave star but it didnt end up as I want it~ it was too short than what I wanted !!
but then Im kinda embracing tha harsh truth and wishes that days would pass by and my hair will get long again.. goodluck to us :(-
mica. said:
to mawee:
hi! thanks for the comment!
i just saw your pictures and as i could see, it just turned out to be nice and chic. unlike mine, that's the reason i did not dare to post some pictures. teehee. :P
i'm embracing the sad truth too in time, we'll have our long locks back! :P-
said:
mica! :) shocks, naeexcite na ako makita buhok mo! alam mo, kahit kulot ka naman cute ka parin e. see you soon! love the kitty layout! :D
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Mayee M. said:
:lunch break:
cheer! bigla po tuloy kita gustong makita. hehe. im sure cute ka p rin nman po. :P
you'll have your long locks back in no time, wag mo lang po intayin. :P-
Trixielle said:
I had my haircut a week ago and it turned out horrible aswell, but you know hair grows eventually :] at pwede pa rin maayos yan
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said:
haha, you're not alone. We have the same problem, but that's ok. Don't worry we'll get our long hair back in no time (well sana). ^_^
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said:
Sintensyahan na natin 'yang nangmasaker sa buhok mo. :D
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said:
Sorry about your hair... ganyan din kasi buhok ko eh, nabubuhay kapag maikli. Lalo na pag binlower! Ang dami pa namang maiikling cuts na maganda. huhuhu. Lagyan mo na lang ng clip yan! hehe.
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mica. said:
to bea:
nakita mo na ko kahapon! mukha bang paslit? mabuti na lang talaga at hindi mo nakita nung bagong gupit pa. parang ewan talaga. :P-
mica. said:
to mayee:
at may lunchbreak pa ha.
wahahai. mejo presentable na ko ngayon. mejo pa lang. pero PUFFY pa rin.
:P-
mica. said:
thanks for the comments!
to trixie:
yun na nga lang din ang iniisip ko. tutubo naman yun uli. in time. medyo nasasanay naman na ko sa itsura niya. ^^
to tintin:
tutubo talaga yan! aba! kakaiba ng tunay yan kapag hindi pa nagsitubo ang mga buhok na toh!
to jake:
anong klaseng sintensya? wahaha. ^^
to gdwn:
hinagilap ko nga po uli u=yung mga clips at headband ko eh. hindi ko akalain na kakailanganin ko pa sila uli. wahaha.
P.S. ang dami kong karamay sa mundo! wee! ^^-
joyce said:
chummy! 'di pa din kita nakikita. 'wag mo na isipin 'yang hair mo. pretty pretty ka naman eh. ;)
may bibigay pa naman ako sa'yong headband, pasalubong ko from pampanga. ^^-
mica. said:
to joycee:
kelan kaya tayo magkikita? wahai. salamat may pasalubong ka pa talaga skin. ^^
