Thursday, December 28
holiday blabs.
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
greetings may come in late but i'm very sincere about it. i hope your christmas wishes were granted and i hope you had a blast with Jesus Christ's birthday celebration.
for the first time in my history, i've completed the simbang gabi process. my late nights were great. no regrets. every night was a moment of intense connection and reconnection with Him. my little and simple wishes were granted right then and there. not only that, those nights were also silay nights because pretty golly, the sakristans were so cute! (heia, God first before boys, ok?)
one night after a simbang gabi, i had my most embarassing moment:
"kahit kailan, hindi ko ginustong mahulog ka sa akin."
- kanal
right. my left foot fell right into a canal hole, soaking my foot with yea, that stuff. good thing i was with boogie and jayvee, they helped me got up from my dangling position and gave me words of care until we got home. the best part? i think nobody saw it. (God is good all the time).
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i was santa again this year. so after a night mass on the eve of 25, i went straight home to prepare the candies and toys to put into my brother's and cousins' santa hats. never mind that i didn't got a glimpse of him longer and that the cute guy beside me did not gave me a 'peace be with' you gesture, i literally ran home, this time with precaution (i don't want to get soaked again!)
we had a simple noche buena. traditionally, we don't really have one since we always have a reunion at my lola's house (my lolo's sister) in white plains, quezon city.
we opened some gifts and luckily i got one. boy was i so happy! they just gave me and odie money since were old enough and were able to buy things of our own.
groovy. :D
i slept at around 2:00am and woke up at around 9:00am. by 1:00pm we went to quezon city and got my loads of kisses, hugs, compliments, gifts (including money), intrigues, and krispy kremes.
ate my heart out! :P
and the best of all? family bonding and LOVE.
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just yesterday, i had a reunion with my batchmates in elementary. i'm so grateful that even after five years, we're still able to meet again and share the joy and pain of teenage life (since merryn would be going back to singapore).
we stayed at jana's newly constructed house in baras. it was magnificent, more like of a mansion. it had three floors and all lot were from malaysia (she stays there permanently and would come back here for college).
it was totally bumming, we don't have any plans of what to do so at first it was plain boring. still, i was happy with their presence.
much have changed in almost all of us. changes were so shocking most of the time. i felt so left out. they were fully grown. merryn too was left out. we don't drink, we don't know how to play cards (except for merryn who knows tong-its), and we didn't had a serious relationship ever.
we're all growing up. or rather had grown up. naguguluhan tuloy ako. talaga bang grown-up na ko? i can't place myself with them. hai. when can i ever find my place under the sun?
von voyage merryn and jana!
i'm looking forward in seeing you again! :D
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masaya ako at nakatagal ang blog na 'to. wala mang maiging nagbabasa dito, masayang isipin na pinahahalagahan ko pala ang magaganda at hindi gaanong magagandang bagay na nangyayari sa akin. wala mang may pakialam, ayos lang. normal lang naman siguro ang makaramdam ng lungkot. lungkot dahil akala mo walang nagpapahalaga sayo. walang nagpapahalaga sa mga ginagawa mo. walang nakakaalala sayo. kung sabagay, sino ka nga naman sa buhay nila? napadaan ka lang naman 'di ba?
ayos pare, ang senti. self-inflicted nga ang kalungkutan. at hindi medikal ang pinakamatinding sakit sa mundo. :P
masaya akong natatakot. matatapos na ang 2006. matatapos ko na pala ang unang taon ko sa kolehiyo. halos tatlong buwan na lang ay magiging legal na ko. masaya ako dahil umuusad ako ngunit takot sa pag-usad kong ito. madadagdagan ang edad ko, magbabago ang kalendaryo pero hindi ko pa rin alam kung saan ako patungo. magiging sophomore na ko pero magulo pa rin ang utak ko. hindi ko pa rin masagot ang tanong na, "how do you see yourself ten years from now?" doktor? gusto ko pero hindi ko kaya. brodkaster? gusto ko. kaya ko. pero ayaw nila. ituloy ko na lang kaya ang tourism? masyadong mababaw kung standards nila ang susundin.
hindi ko tuloy masabi kung nasa tamang pag-iisip na ko. sa dami ng gusto kong maging, hindi ko alam kung anong uunahin at hindi ko alam kung kakayanin. gusto kong maging doktor, media personality, modelo, bihasang manunugtog, streetdancer. simple lang ba? hai. nakakaiyak. masakit isiping gusto mo ang lahat pero parang kahit isa wala ka naman.
todo sentihan na 'toh.
basta, sa lahat ng taong mahalaga sakin: ma, pa, lolo, lola, odie, boogie. tita, tito, jayvee, sam, andee. bar, bea, sop, mars, joyce, kat, deah, rej, mel, nikko, enric, atan, and the rest of the gang. merryn, jana, keilie, alaiza, jerson, francis. tutch. inang. angkan.
(kilala niyo kung sino kayo).
salamat sa isang taon ng pagsasama.
salamat sa simpleng presensya.
salamat sa lahat ng pangaral.
salamat sa pananatili sa buhay ko.
salamat sa mga pang-aasar.
sa pag-aaaway.
sa pagbabati.
sa simpleng bagay.
SALAMAT.
| posted by mica. at 8:08 PM
